Showing posts with label #JoinTheAgenda. Show all posts
Showing posts with label #JoinTheAgenda. Show all posts

Friday, 25 October 2013

Jost's Journal Entry

Instead of Fangirl Friday, I decided I would share with you guys my little take on a scene found in Crewel by Gennifer Albin! Hope you guys enjoy it! Altered will be released October 29th!

NOTE: Will Contain Minor Spoilers. Proceed with caution.

Jost POV

I wasn't angry. I wasn't upset. I was just very disappointed at her. If I was mad at anyone, it was with him.

She was laughing. Laughing. Erik had never been funny in his entire life! I really just wanted to punch that easy-going smile off his face.

There was a time where I probably would've laughed at his lameness too. But that was a long time ago, where I thought nothing could ever separate-

"How do you two know each other?" Adelice asks, snapping me out of my malaise.

I freeze and stare at her wide eyed. No, there's no way she could know. She couldn't possibly know that we-

"You said he sent you..." She trails off, looking between the two of us, and I could practically hear the gears turning in her head.

Say something idiot! My head screams. But I can't. I'm stuck. She knows- "Jost is the head valet," Erik informs loudly. He looks at me briefly, but I could see his anger- and his fear. "When I couldn't come to your cell, I asked him to attend to you."

Adelice nods and Erik quickly changes the subject. If I wasn't so shaken up by her near-revelation, I would've listened with awe at how effortlessly he changed the subject. 

But, I have been living with him for three years now. I'm so used to him being swift and smooth with other things, what's a little change in conversation? 

Adelice, a voice whispers. It's Adelice.

Yes, it was her. She's the reason why I had any particular interest with their exchange. She's smart, she's different. She doesn't deserve a pretty lap dog that doesn't even know the meaning of loyalty.

I wanted to scream at the top of the lungs. I wanted to tell her she didn't deserve him, that she shouldn't be anywhere near him. He's no good, he doesn't care- he didn't even go home to check on his family when his mother died.

I was shaking with anger and jealousy, my fear now forgotten, as he escorts her to her cabin at the rebound station. But as I look at the two of them, I see her relax as he guides her. She looks safe, she looks sure. I almost feel guilty for being upset with him.

Almost.

When I enter the cabin, I slump in my chair and close my eyes. My serene state only lasts for a few minutes as I hear him come in, followed by the stewardess. After being strapped in, she leaves us together. It was a good thing we were both tied down in chairs.

"You messed up out there," he said after a few moments of silence. "Why?"

It takes me a few moments to answer him. "I don't know," I reply honestly. "I really don't."

He stares at me with haunting blue eyes similar to my own. "It's okay you know," he reassures me, and suddenly, I feel like I'm five again. I bite my lip and give him a distainful look. Who was he trying to fool? 

Erik let's out a sigh. "Jost," he says slowly. "It's alright. She doesn't know."

"You sure?" I snapped.

He nods, but his face looks troubled. "For now," I say his unspoken thought. 

"For now," he repeats silently to himself. "But, if it makes you feel any better she caught me off guard too."

I snorted. "Yeah, I know, you had that same look on your face when you found out that I'd put your hair in pigtails when we were ten."

He frowns, but I can hear the amusement in his voice as he says, "Well, you looked like you had just peed your pants in front of Rozenn all over again."

Usually, I would've been upset over the mention of her name, but I found myself laughing. I was even more amazed as he started laughing with me.

"Thanks for saving my ass out there," I tell him silently. "I really appreciate it bro."

He gives a ghost of a smile. "Don't mention it," he replies. "Literally."

And around us, the room begins to shimmer and fade, along with this moment.

Sunday, 13 October 2013

#JoinTheAgenda: Lie to Me lyrics

Hey guys! It's Thanksgiving weekend here in Canada (which means I have 4 days off, yay!). I was going to do my review of Clockwork Prince by Cassandra Clare and post it today, but I spent the whole afternoon shopping with my family that came from Alberta. I got a lot of new clothes! :D Unfortunately, I was banned from buying any books so...yeah. No book haul this week :(

But, I decided that instead of spending my evening writing my review and ignoring my homework and my 10 other books I have to read (yeah, I'm totally behind), I would post the lyrics to Lie to Me.

Lie to Me is a song I wrote inspired by Gennifer Albin's Crewel. I was planning to record the song as well, but unfortunately, I haven't gotten around that yet :( I've been super busy... and my dad is very wary letting me near his nice recording stuff. He thinks I'll break it (I probably will though. I broke his guitar once :/).

So hear it is, Lie to Me by yours truly :) Hope you like it, and hopefully I'll be able to record this thing! (Eventually).

Lie to me

Lie to me
Tell me it'll be okay
Promise I'll be safe
That we'll live to see another day

Stay with me
Pull me a little close
Keep me forever
And promise to never let go

This is all a dream
Nothing is what it seems
You might speak useless things but it means the world to me
I've seen the truth
I've been fed lies
But it's your useless things 
That help me sleep at night
So lie to me

Your so against the world
Please come back to me
Love may be cruel
But reality is crueler you see, that

I have no power
Without out you
Give me your strength
And fight with me, stay with me, please lie...

This is all a dream
Nothing is what it seems
You might speak useless things but it means the world to me
I've seen the truth
I've been fed lies
But it's your useless things 
That help me sleep at night
So lie to me (X3)

(Lie to me) Tell me this'll stop
(Lie to me) Tell me you believe in me
(Lie to me) Tell me your still my friend
(Lie to me) Tell me that this world won't end...

Lie to me
Tell me it'll be okay
Promise I'll be safe
That we'll live to see another day

Lie to me
Give me words of comfort and strength
I don't care if it's for a little while
Just lie, lie, to me